random.

i feel like i had much more that i wanted to say, but most of it seems to have escaped me at the moment, so here are some random thoughts.

tomorrow is full moon, and i always look forward to that. it's just so beautiful and it's light fills everything. i like sitting in my truck in the driveway, with all the lights off, and have everything illuminated by it's light.

i got a new journal tonight. i finished my other one just last night and was uninspired by the blank ones i have lying around the house somewhere, so i made a special trip to barnes & noble just to get it. i was hoping to walk up and find the perfect one, and i did. it's a "quotablejournal" and i've never gotten one of those before. it's got a green cover that fades from bottom to top and has a quote from eleanor roosevelt on it. "yesterday is history tomorrow is mystery today is a gift." i love that quote. it embodies everything that i think my whole purpose of writing in a journal every night is. to record my own personal history.

if you don't journal you should. it's an amazingly freeing thing.

i wrote a card to send to my former roommate christine today. i'm very excited about it. it's a card that is totally different than anything i would actually send seriously to someone. it contains a little slip of paper that reads "surprise slut" and some of my favorite of christine's lines that i miss.

i listen to sherwood basically every day. what exactly i listen to changes, but today i listened to every song of their's that i have at least once. when i'm in my truck and driving i sing along as loudly as i please (with the music as loud as i please). each time today that i got in my truck and started singing along after only a few lines i had a moment where i could sing, but just smile and laugh cause i love their music so much. i would then proceed to sing more with that same smile on my face. i see them tuesday at warped, and i can't wait.

i'm not sure how i feel about going to the warped tour in general. i'm going to see sherwood, and check out a few other bands (but that's not my actual reason for going). warped as a whole is what i'm not sure about. i've always steered clear of it in the past, going "oh, today is the warped tour." i'm just not sure about the whole crowd thing there. we'll see how it goes.

after i write things here (and in my journal too i suppose, but less there) i sometimes feel like a total jerk. the way that i word things and what i talk about just don't always come across correct when read again. sure it seemed right at the time, but it doesn't always translate to later. then there are times when i mean everything that i say, nice or mean, and still occasionally feel like a jerk later. but not always. it's just better when i'm totally honest.

the tour de france is going on right now, and i love to watch it. i could usually care less about cycling, but there is just something about the tour that i love to watch. this is the third year i'll have watched it. it was a little more fun when lance was still racing, but not a whole lot. then it was "will he win another one?" and now it's "who's going to win now that he's gone?"

wow, for someone who didn't have much to say i think that i've done a good job of finding lots to say. that was far more than i anticipated in writing tonight.

feeling optimistic with a touch of something negative.
- corrie