emotionally drained.
today has been such an emotional rollercoaster, i'm not sure if i've ever experienced anything quite like it. the plan for today was to sleep in (which i did, cause i was up till 1am again), then go over to church , get my mom and josh and go to the balboa middle school "celebration" (lame word that they use for graduation), and then mom and i would get some grub, and do a little shopping. we made it to the parking lot of balboa middle school before plans changed.
as we pull into a parking place, my cell phone begins to ring. it's my uncle, and i don't think much of it. i answer and he asks if i know where my mom is, and i can tell that there is something wrong by his voice. she was behind me so i handed the phone back to her. his cell phone was breaking up, and got disconnected. he called back and we started unloading our chairs. josh gets his out and one of ours, and i hear my mom go "what happened?" in an "i'm shocked, something is wrong, upset" tone. she mouths that it's the baby. my uncle and his wife are pregnant with their first child, who is to be my first cousin on that side of the family. i immediately think that she's lost the baby, but they continue to talk. as it turns out her water broke this morning at 5am. stephanie isn't due until the beginning of october. at this point they had no idea what was going on. the initial thing was for my mom to go to santa barbara, and then i decided that i needed to go too. so josh took her and i back to the church where me met my dad (who was working) and formed a game plan. my mom and i were going to go up there, and he was going to stay. so we ran back home, grabbed some food, i got some stuff to do, because i didn't know how long we'd be up there for, and then we took off. the whole way up there we speculated about what was going on. they'd admitted her to the hospital so we didn't think that she'd had a miscarriage, but we still knew nothing. it was weird driving up to santa barbara today with such an uncertain thing waiting for us there. it made me think back to the last 2 times that i've made that drive since i've been back and how happy those things were. i thought about when i went to see sherwood at ucsb, and everything that i thought about on that drive, and then the beauty of the day that i drove to san luis obispo. the day was wonderful, the ocean a dark blue, and the waves a pure white, but still there was the unknown of where we were headed.
we finally arrived at the hospital, found her floor and where her room was. we had to ask the nurse, and she said that the doctor was in with them, but we could knock and see if we could go in. as soon as we got to the door we heard stephanie laughing, and knew everything was good. it turned out not to be ideal but everything right now is fine. she has a leak in the amniotic sack and is on bed rest for the duration of her pregnancy. so for the next 10 weeks (that's the ideal amount of time) she will be living in that hospital room, allowed to get up only to go to the bathroom and take a shower. it was such a relief, but things are still going to be difficult for the rest of the summer. i am so thankful that she's fine and so is the baby, and i pray that she can make it at least 2 more weeks before having the baby. we're all so excited about this baby (it's a girl whose name is madeline, by the way), and i'm not sure what we'd do if she didn't make it.
that was my crazy afternoon. i believe that it will all work out.
on a much more amusing note, sherwood announced that today was national "tell your friends about sherwood" day. screw flag day, today is forever SHERWOOD DAY. in honor of that i'm listening to sherwood right now. not like i don't listen to them every day anyway, but normally this is when i try to listen to something other than sherwood. they're just giving me an excuse to listen to them more. if you aren't listening to them you darn well should be. see me for music and/or download their free summer ep at absolutepunk.net/sherwood. i think that's all.
hopefully in the clear.
- corrie
as we pull into a parking place, my cell phone begins to ring. it's my uncle, and i don't think much of it. i answer and he asks if i know where my mom is, and i can tell that there is something wrong by his voice. she was behind me so i handed the phone back to her. his cell phone was breaking up, and got disconnected. he called back and we started unloading our chairs. josh gets his out and one of ours, and i hear my mom go "what happened?" in an "i'm shocked, something is wrong, upset" tone. she mouths that it's the baby. my uncle and his wife are pregnant with their first child, who is to be my first cousin on that side of the family. i immediately think that she's lost the baby, but they continue to talk. as it turns out her water broke this morning at 5am. stephanie isn't due until the beginning of october. at this point they had no idea what was going on. the initial thing was for my mom to go to santa barbara, and then i decided that i needed to go too. so josh took her and i back to the church where me met my dad (who was working) and formed a game plan. my mom and i were going to go up there, and he was going to stay. so we ran back home, grabbed some food, i got some stuff to do, because i didn't know how long we'd be up there for, and then we took off. the whole way up there we speculated about what was going on. they'd admitted her to the hospital so we didn't think that she'd had a miscarriage, but we still knew nothing. it was weird driving up to santa barbara today with such an uncertain thing waiting for us there. it made me think back to the last 2 times that i've made that drive since i've been back and how happy those things were. i thought about when i went to see sherwood at ucsb, and everything that i thought about on that drive, and then the beauty of the day that i drove to san luis obispo. the day was wonderful, the ocean a dark blue, and the waves a pure white, but still there was the unknown of where we were headed.
we finally arrived at the hospital, found her floor and where her room was. we had to ask the nurse, and she said that the doctor was in with them, but we could knock and see if we could go in. as soon as we got to the door we heard stephanie laughing, and knew everything was good. it turned out not to be ideal but everything right now is fine. she has a leak in the amniotic sack and is on bed rest for the duration of her pregnancy. so for the next 10 weeks (that's the ideal amount of time) she will be living in that hospital room, allowed to get up only to go to the bathroom and take a shower. it was such a relief, but things are still going to be difficult for the rest of the summer. i am so thankful that she's fine and so is the baby, and i pray that she can make it at least 2 more weeks before having the baby. we're all so excited about this baby (it's a girl whose name is madeline, by the way), and i'm not sure what we'd do if she didn't make it.
that was my crazy afternoon. i believe that it will all work out.
on a much more amusing note, sherwood announced that today was national "tell your friends about sherwood" day. screw flag day, today is forever SHERWOOD DAY. in honor of that i'm listening to sherwood right now. not like i don't listen to them every day anyway, but normally this is when i try to listen to something other than sherwood. they're just giving me an excuse to listen to them more. if you aren't listening to them you darn well should be. see me for music and/or download their free summer ep at absolutepunk.net/sherwood. i think that's all.
hopefully in the clear.
- corrie
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