stressful.

my favorite month of october is now over, and in all honesty it's a bit of a relief. our whole family was so involved in what feels like everything that we were all at the end of our ropes when the month ended. unfortunetly the stress has not really left, and actually become reenergized in a new area. with that the anxiety level has built as well. i'm not really sure what is happening with it and when i do know i'm not sure how i will take it. what i do know is that on the whole it's not going to be pretty.

last weekend was great. i went back to illinois for homecoming at greenville, and got to see almost everyone and that was pretty great. i ended up not doing a whole lot, which is not what i had planned on but ended up being just what i needed. a couple of the things that i really wanted to do that i accomplished were eating at st. louis bread co. (delicious!), going to the cross country meet (both guys and girls won!), going to the football game (greenville won 44-14, go panthers!), and eating a blizzard at dairy queen (the classic small town thing to do). in addition to the things i wanted to do i got to hang out with almost everyone i wanted to and in the very least i said hi to most people. i also got to hang out with a couple of people who i hadn't really seen since they graduated a couple of years ago so that was nice too.

i'm really longing for things to cool down, which they are, but i think that what i really want is a bit of a change of scenery and more of a fall like atmosphere. this isn't bad but it's just lacking something. although i do have a great new sweater for cool weather and i'm loving it. woo.