restless.

i need to get out and do something. but what? i don't know. i've spent the last hour wandering around trying to come up with something and failing the whole way. i went to the union to get lunch, i went to the library to do some reading, but didn't want to work there. then i went out to scott field and sat there and read a couple of chapters in a book, and now i'm in a computer lab with nothing else to do. i think that i may go take a bit of a walk and get a soy latte and go back to the house. i'm already not looking forward to this weekend, and it's barely begun.

blah.

camp.

7 months from today i'm going to be 22. that's a little weird. what's funny though is that my friend turns 21 in a few days and keeps going on about how old she is. i'm like hello, i'm older (not much, but still), and she goes "yea you're old." nice huh?

last night as i was walking to dinner i felt like i was at camp. there was something about the air, and my mood, and the clothes that i was wearing that made me feel like i was on my way to eat at camp. it was weird and nice all at the same time.

things in the room are about to change. the necessary steps have been taken and the people in charge have allowed for changes to take place. i don't want to talk about them explicitly, but lets just say that hopefully by monday things will be much easier to live with.

i'm super excited because on friday i only have one class. given, it's COR401, which is my least favorite class, but still. at 10:30 friday morning i will be done for the weekend. so nice. speaking of COR, i totally hate it. i am so frusterated by the whole thing, and the deeper into it we get the more i want out. even my group, i thought that it was going to be fine, but the communication is lacking, and i'm not sure that everyone is being honest with each other, and relying fully on the talents of the group as a whole. and for those reasons i feel like some people are feeling overwhelmed/annoyed more than others about the whole thing. none of us like it, but we need to share that between all of us!

i have com seminar now and i should probably get going.

lightning show.

tonight is one of the most lame nights i've ever experienced in greenville. a surprising number of people went home this weekend, leaving a boring town even more boring. i was done with things around 3:30 this afternoon, and watched tv until 5 when julianne and i went to dinner. we spent over an hour there eating bad food in silence. then we came back to the house and sat/stood on the front porch watching it rain, and trying to come up with something to do. we didn't figure anything out. i wish someone had taken a picture of us though. both staring off into space in silence. eventually we went up to our room and turned on the tv and colored. i colored a starfish surfing. not too shabby. during this time in the room i discovered that i'm not the only one who had nothing to do. two of my friends who live in the apartments next to us were equally stumped as what to do. so they did laundry. then it happened. i got ditched. julianne was talking to one of her friends online who also had nothing to do, and invited her over. so she went. and i totally can't blame her. if i had something to do i'd have gone too. so now i'm alone. with nothing to do, and no one to talk to.

it's not raining here anymore but it's raining not far off. there were some major storms that came through the area today, but none that came real close to hitting us. so, while it's not raining, there is still lightning visible from our house. in honor of that and being warm in our room i am now outside watching the lightning over the freshman girls dorm and listening to music. currently it's travis "safe." it's nice and enjoyable. it would be far more enjoyable if there was someone here to enjoy it with me.

earlier i made a comment to julianne that what we need are boyfriends with whom we can do something fun. now, in reality it would be nice to have someone, but i don't need a boyfriend. and it would really be nice if i had someone to do something with other than my roommate. not that we don't do fun stuff and enjoy each other's company, but it'd be nice to have another option sometimes.

also, i remembered what the last thing that i wanted to write about in my last entry was. i've decided that what i really want for christmas is the complete monty python's flying circus. hours of endless entertainment as far as i'm concerned.

now what to do?
- corrie

happy moments alone.

i am in such a good mood right now, and i don't know if it's going to get better tonight than it is right now. i'm sitting alone in the middle of our room watching the concert for george, and heating up water for tea. if you've never watched/listened to the concert for george i really encourage you to. i own it. it is amazing. all sorts of fantastic musicians singing classic songs in honor of george harrison. (who if you don't know is my favorite beatle.) what led me to this moment in my night? well, it began with a difficult conversation, that i was unsure about, and still don't know what the outcome will be, but i do believe it will be the best most educated decision. then, i had a paper that i had to write for class tomorrow. it's typical for me to leave papers until the last minute to write, however with this paper i attempted to being it earlier on in the day, and while i was unable to then, i got it done quickly this evening. my friends would hardly belive that i got a paper done before 11 p.m. the night before it's due, but i did! while i was working on the paper i was listening to music, and tom petty performing "taxman" from the concert for george came on and it inspired me to put the dvd on and watch/listen to it. the music that was composed by ravi shankar and played as the first portion of the concert is exquisite, and i love wathcing anouska shankar play the sitar. then the remaining members of monty pyton came out and performed "sit on my face" and, my personal favorite, "the lumberjack song." and now jeff lynne is perfoming "give me love" another song that i love. then again i love pretty much anything by george harrison. ah... to be happy. i enjoy it. i think that there was more that i wanted to say but julianne came in and ruined the flow of thoughts. not that i mind. we're going to go out on the roof and drink tea and look at the stars and talk now.

give me love, give me love, give me peace on earth.
- corrie

lakes.

i'm in a bit of an odd mood right now, and for some odd reason felt like blogging. i suppose so that it's so that i can put something in writing (or typing) and not have everything inside me anymore. right now i'm listening to the lakes ep. it is fantastic. i can hardly stop listening to it and i long for more music from them. i really should eat some lunch, and do some reading for class... but i really don't want to do either. actually food would be good but i don't want to go to the dc and i don't want to make it myself. see, that's how odd my mood is. whatever. go listen to lakes and think of me.

fun fun fun.

i had such a good time tonight. at 6:40 christine called me and invited me to go with her and mary to st. louis to go to the galeria and shop. now, yes, i did do this last weekend, but it was totally different. i haven't hung out with them in ages, and so it was just a great time. we did everything from each getting a pair of cheap sunglasses, to christine riding this funky thing at brookstone, to lounging in starbucks, to accompanying mary to get an ipod nano. we had such a good time. it is so nice to go out with people and just goof off! on the way back we cranked up hellogoodbye and sang along and danced. i was so glad that i went. it was just so much fun, and exactly what i needed. i'm happy, and that's always good. here are some funny pictures from the night and maybe tomorrow i'll put up a hillarious video of christine. muahahahha.

good times!
- corrie

a storm.

i can feel a storm brewing. and it's not a weather related one. it's between everyone in our room. lately it's not been too bad, but i'm not happy. none of us are happy. i've been content, but not happy. i don't like not being happy. i mean, right now i'm listening to my music, laura is listening to her music on her bed in the other room, and julianne is watching the gilmore girls that i just finished watching. we don't interact as a whole. i don't know what to do. none of us do. something has got to change but i don't know where to start. it's not like one person is living in blissful ignorance, and the other two are unhappy. i may be able to deal with that better than with this. i love this house and i love our room, but i don't love this situation. i can't continue to live like this and none of us should have to. i don't know what's going to happen, but whenever it does happen it's going to be big. it's going to be soon too.

the sky is starting to cloud over.
- corrie

(note: i have had lots of fun and happy experiences since i've been back at school. the above post is referring only to my living situation.)

long days.

it's been a long last couple of days. tonight i'm pretty much dead, but i have this ugre to just sit and listen to music. i put i tunes on random and first was badly drawn boy and now death cab for cutie "passanger seat" is playing and it's really relaxing and so nice. i'm talking with someone online and i think that when our conversations over i'll go out on the roof with my ipod and just listen. the idea sounds beautiful.

goodnight.
- corrie

full moon.

tonight is the full moon. i love when it's full moon.
i'm going to go out on the roof and watch it for a few minutes.
i'm going to enjoy it before it's gone.

tea.

the last half hour has been so enjoyable. i sat out on the roof with julianne drinking tea and talking. it was so relaxing. we just sat in the cool night air, and listened to the the bugs, and the trees, and the guys playing guitar and singing on their porch down the road. we couldn't see the stars due to the cloud cover, but that wasn't a big deal. we're going to go out there again tomorrow and drink some tea and take some pictures. i love having a roof to go out and sit on. i've never been able to do anything like it before, and is honestly one of the reasons we wanted to live in this room. also, i've started drinking more tea lately (the last couple of days really), and i'm enjoying it much more than i would even a year ago. my tastes are a changin'.

as a bit of a follow-up, it didn't rain yesterday or today, and things have actually turned up again. i'm hoping not to have cursed it by writing this, but there is a 40 percent chance of rain tomorrow anyway. if it does rain i'll try not to let it get me down.

i love drinking tea on my roof.
- corrie

i hate fridays.

why in the world do fridays always suck in greenville? i mean really, it's my first real friday here and it basically sucks. even last year i remember having plenty of crappy fridays where i spent the evening alone in front of the tv eating fast food. and what am i doing tonight? the same thing. i actually had plans for tonight (ahead of the game right?), but they fell through. i was suposed to hang out with a friend, but she ended up having to work, and i don't blame her, but it still sucks.

and, to top it all off - it rained again. yep. i thought that i was through the rain but, nope, it rained again. i guess things won't be looking up.

suck.
- corrie