getting better.

all around. i'm currently wide awake (almost), my cold is subsiding, and i think that i've cured my computer of it's virus. i'm optimistic right now. i'm scanning my computer again for viruses, again, just to check, but so far so good. those annoying little virus alert boxes have stopped coming up, and its even working things faster. oh yea, and like i said, my cold IS getting better. i haven't felt as good as i feel now since sunday. i'm still blowing my nose often (but not too often), and i'm coughing more, but i can smell things and my overall attitude has improved. well, i've got about 70,000+ files to go in the scan then i can go to bed! yay for bedtime.

relieved.
- corrie

sniff sniff.

well, i've got a cold. one of those lack of sleep and too much activity colds. my body is worn down and tired. i don't think it will last too long though, i just need to take care of myself. in pursuit of that, last night i stayed at home instead of going out to see the lake house with friends. i ended up watching engineering rome one the history channel with my dad for 2 hours. i think i made the right choice.

today was the beginning of vbs (vacation bible school). it went well, and i'm looking forward (somewhat) to the rest of the week. i just wish i weren't sick. if i'd had last week off i think that i could have prevented it. however, i spent last week living with middle school girls, and that plus not quite enough sleep could do anyone in. my girls (there were only 2) did great, it was the rest of our cabin that was a nightmare. our in cabin camp counselor was great, we're even friends on facebook now at her request.

went to barnes & noble today with mom (by her choosing), and got a new book. nothing deep here, just pure fiction thriller mystery in the form of the book of the dead by douglas preston and lincoln child. so far so good, but what's written in the jacket cover has yet to pop up in the book. of course i am only 3 or so chapters in. i went in looking for a book like this, and i ended up finding 4, but only able to purchase one. i wrote the others down (as usual), and hopefully i'll get them and read them by the end of summer. that is if my thirst for this type of novel persists.

presumably getting better.
- corrie

pops.

i love my dad, and what better day to show my love for him than father's day? my dad is quiet (until you get to know him), and even tempered, and has a great sense of humor. he calls me dot and i call him pop, and we snap our fingers at each other around the house. now for a couple of stories about him.

one night he and my mother were out to dinner in downtown ventura, and walking by a store called wild planet. wild planet attracts all types of people from the hippie type, to the blue haired punk type. standing outside when they walked by happened to be a kid about 18 with a huge mohawk. my dad walked up to him and said "do you think i could do that to my hair?" and takes off his hat to reveal his long thinned hairline. the kid didn't know what to say but it has gone down in family legend.

my dad has fun playing the guitar. it started with him picking at it playing "yesterday" by the beatles, and other songs. it evolved into worship music and a little bit of everything (most recently "middle of the night" by sherwood). so, he's looking into getting a new guitar (he's currently playing my mom's old not so good one, that doesn't keep tune among other things), and he borrowed our friend liz's to see if he wanted one like hers. this is where it gets good. liz's guitar has a leopard print guitar strap, so he'll stand around the house playing this guitar, strap on and all. an old woman who used to go to our church and was greatly loved passed away about a week and a half ago and my mother was asked to sing at the graveside, and she asked my dad to accompany her. he did, leopard guitar strap and all. i told a couple of my friends (including liz) about it, and one said "your dad must be very secure with himself." liz said that when she heard he played at the funeral and that he left her guitar strap on all she could do was laugh.

that's the kind of guy that my dad is, and i love him for it all.

proud to call him my father.
- corrie

he and i represent sherwood well. (the shirt was his father's day gift.)

unpredictable.

oh my goodness. i have had such a good day! yesterday was up and down and the down part was totally made up in the great fun i had today. i'll briefly share it with you (briefly only because of how tired i am). i got up at 5:40 to work, and was at work by 6:30. work was fine and i even got off early, which made me really glad that i took those extra hours this morning. i run some errands and get home, and find a message from my mom saying that i should call her back because sara jane (the boss' wife) has 2 free tickets to the kenny chesney concert tonight. i call, and get details, then call my friend liz to see if she wants to go and she does and she can. so we planned on a time to leave and such, and i got ready and ate. we left and made good time (it was at the home depot center in carson), and got parking and got in and it was all good. so it turns out that carrie underwood is opening, then dierks bentley, then kenny chesney. we missed the marjority of carrie underwood, and were getting drinks when dierks started, but he was a great surprise. i love dierks bentley, and saw him last summer in ventura, and it was great to see him again. so then kenny played, and it was fun and enjoyable. it was like watching one of his music videos. he also had van halen and uncle kracker come out and perform with him. the whole night was very surreal, and a total blast. plus on top of getting to go to this concert for free, we got seat upgrades from kzla. we were sitting in our seats (which were good), when a guy comes up to us and goes, "would you like to get better seats?" we were like "sure!" so we did and had much better seats for the show. the only way that it could have gotten better was if we'd met one of the performers. i'm so stoked, but totally exhausted. i got 5 or so hours of sleep last night and i've been up for 19 or so. i really need to sleep, but i'm just so excited about tonight that i had to write it.

dead tired, and totally stoked.
- corrie

update.

i'm feeling much better now. i don't hate anything anymore, and i'm only still slightly annoyed at a few things. work was fine, and hanging out with people was great. i actually didn't want to leave, but i'm leaving for work at 6am tomorrow, so i needed to get home and get to bed. just wanted to do a little update on my day after such a hateful post earlier. those things just come and go rarely with me.

happy finally.
- corrie

hate.

that's how i feel about basically everything right now. i am so incredibly mad, that i am having difficulty containing it all. i hate that i'm right and no one is listening to me. i hate that my mom is putting blame on things that aren't the cause, and not listening to me. i hate that she's acting like she's 16. i hate that i have to work. i hate that didn't get everything that i needed to get done done because i have to work. i want to be alone and that just isn't happening. i have to go and be plesant to all sorts of stupid people and someone who i'm mad at, and then go hang out with people who i love but really don't want to see today. i want to yell and scream and swear and cry.

damn it.

emotionally drained.

today has been such an emotional rollercoaster, i'm not sure if i've ever experienced anything quite like it. the plan for today was to sleep in (which i did, cause i was up till 1am again), then go over to church , get my mom and josh and go to the balboa middle school "celebration" (lame word that they use for graduation), and then mom and i would get some grub, and do a little shopping. we made it to the parking lot of balboa middle school before plans changed.

as we pull into a parking place, my cell phone begins to ring. it's my uncle, and i don't think much of it. i answer and he asks if i know where my mom is, and i can tell that there is something wrong by his voice. she was behind me so i handed the phone back to her. his cell phone was breaking up, and got disconnected. he called back and we started unloading our chairs. josh gets his out and one of ours, and i hear my mom go "what happened?" in an "i'm shocked, something is wrong, upset" tone. she mouths that it's the baby. my uncle and his wife are pregnant with their first child, who is to be my first cousin on that side of the family. i immediately think that she's lost the baby, but they continue to talk. as it turns out her water broke this morning at 5am. stephanie isn't due until the beginning of october. at this point they had no idea what was going on. the initial thing was for my mom to go to santa barbara, and then i decided that i needed to go too. so josh took her and i back to the church where me met my dad (who was working) and formed a game plan. my mom and i were going to go up there, and he was going to stay. so we ran back home, grabbed some food, i got some stuff to do, because i didn't know how long we'd be up there for, and then we took off. the whole way up there we speculated about what was going on. they'd admitted her to the hospital so we didn't think that she'd had a miscarriage, but we still knew nothing. it was weird driving up to santa barbara today with such an uncertain thing waiting for us there. it made me think back to the last 2 times that i've made that drive since i've been back and how happy those things were. i thought about when i went to see sherwood at ucsb, and everything that i thought about on that drive, and then the beauty of the day that i drove to san luis obispo. the day was wonderful, the ocean a dark blue, and the waves a pure white, but still there was the unknown of where we were headed.

we finally arrived at the hospital, found her floor and where her room was. we had to ask the nurse, and she said that the doctor was in with them, but we could knock and see if we could go in. as soon as we got to the door we heard stephanie laughing, and knew everything was good. it turned out not to be ideal but everything right now is fine. she has a leak in the amniotic sack and is on bed rest for the duration of her pregnancy. so for the next 10 weeks (that's the ideal amount of time) she will be living in that hospital room, allowed to get up only to go to the bathroom and take a shower. it was such a relief, but things are still going to be difficult for the rest of the summer. i am so thankful that she's fine and so is the baby, and i pray that she can make it at least 2 more weeks before having the baby. we're all so excited about this baby (it's a girl whose name is madeline, by the way), and i'm not sure what we'd do if she didn't make it.

that was my crazy afternoon. i believe that it will all work out.

on a much more amusing note, sherwood announced that today was national "tell your friends about sherwood" day. screw flag day, today is forever SHERWOOD DAY. in honor of that i'm listening to sherwood right now. not like i don't listen to them every day anyway, but normally this is when i try to listen to something other than sherwood. they're just giving me an excuse to listen to them more. if you aren't listening to them you darn well should be. see me for music and/or download their free summer ep at absolutepunk.net/sherwood. i think that's all.

hopefully in the clear.
- corrie

i swear it was him.

okay, so i'm sitting here watching an old gilmore girls (season 2 to be exact). in this episode lorelai goes on her first date after breaking off the engagement with max, and it happends to be with a man who is younger than her. she never wants to see him again, but is happy because she has made a step to move on more and is now a "casual dater." one morning she's in luke's and he comes in with his parents after hearing all about the place where she lives. so now everyone in town knows who this guy is, and starts giving her a hard time. miss patty, luke, sookie, and kirk even took pictures of him. so this particular morning everyone is giving her a hard time and she's trying to talk to luke when this guy, bootie or something, says that when he was younger he dated an older women, and was sad when it ended. she goes, "well, i'm sorry she dumped you but...." and then he goes, "oh, she didn't dump me. she died of a heart attack, she was much older." and in one second it clicked for me, or at least i thought it did. i'm 99% positive that he is bud cort who played harold in harold and maude. i don't know if any of you have seen that movie, but in it this 18 year old guy dates this crazy old woman and yea. see it if you want. i didn't entirely enjoy it the first time, but i dunno, maybe i'll watch it again. it's just a weird movie. but yea, i could swear that it was him, but i looked online and it didn't show that he was in it. well, whatever, even if it wasn't him, and i'm sure that it was, the story would fit, and it's something that the writers of gilmore girls would include in the script.

oh, and i can't drive my truck until it gets fixed and it will be at least 2 weeks till i get it back. i'm not happy, but i don't want to deal with it.

however, on a much more interesting note, TEA is playing at the roxy later this month, and i hope that i can find a couple of people to go with me. if you're interested, it's june 28th. just shoot me a message!

currently blah and without a ride.
- corrie

happy thoughts seem rare.

so, after a busy day of running around, i'm sitting here lounging, watching music videos. i just saw the end of the new pink video (i don't even know what it's called), and i don't get it. if i'd seen the whole thing i probably could have gotten a more clear picture. now "when you're mad" by ne-yo is on, and it's just a funny video. ("you're just so damn sexy, when you're mad.") ask me about it sometime, i see it often.

so, i was busy today with grad night at church. along with one of the high school leaders (becky), i planned the decorations. the theme was aloha! so it wasn't that difficult to work something out for decorations. lots of hawiaiian stuff mostly. we decorated for 2 and a half hours today, and it looked amazing. it turned out so well. i think that i liked it more than the one i did two years ago, which was the agrademy awards. and i was pretty stoked on that one. everything went really well with the whole night. lots of people loved the decorations, and the program went great too. i didn't get a pie in the face, unfortunately the person who did was nat. she really took one for the team there, and we all appreciated it. oh, so you know, we did a trivia game for the 8th grade grads and the prize for winning was to pick a leader of their choice and pie them in the face. josh was worried that it would be him, but was hoping it would be me, and it ended up being nat. finally take down went great too. everyone was really helpful, and it didn't take very long. we saved most of the decorations for vacation bible school, because they have a similar theme, and are going to use what they can.

i'm looking forward to vbs too. i'm "teaching" recreation with josh. i always loved volunteering to work with recreation when i was younger and now i get to be in charge, so that'll be good. before vbs, i'm doing one of my favorite summer things - taking the middle schoolers to camp. that is always such a good time. i've only got 2 girls going with me this summer, sarah and emily. sarah is my "little sister," and emily is the daughter of your new pastor. they're both heading into sixth grade and don't really know what to expect from camp, but they'll have a great time i'm sure of it. they're crazy though, and i'll have to sit down and talk with sarah before we leave, cause i can see her acting in a way with me that won't work for camp. it is always fun though. can't believe it's only a week away, and i can't wait.

i should probably get going. i think that i'm going to help paint the middle school room tomorrow with the rest of the college group. we'll see how that goes. the new kelly clarkson video is on. it's funny.

smiling.
- corrie

been so long.

so. today i worked my first farmers market for underwoods, and it was great. i really enjoyed it, much better than the stand. but before i headed down to camarillo to work i ran by my current house sitting job, and with a few minutes to spare went to simone's to grab a vanilla latte (yum!). already at simones were a group of people who, at first glance, i didn't know. i looked back at them, and a couple of the women caught my eye. turns out that it was my second grade teacher mrs. wilson, and my fourth grade teacher mrs. burnell. i was surprised to see them. it has been a long time. i don't think that mrs. burnell remembered me (at least not by looking at me), but when i left i walked by mrs. wilson and she went "are you corrie?" and i said yes, and we talked for a minute, catching up briefly. (what are you up to? where do you go to school? what is your major? you're already done with you junior year of college? wow!) i had to run because i was running late (but actually made it right on time. go me!), but on my way to the market i thought back and realized that it had been 13 years since i'd been in her class. 13 years! that's crazy. i've been feeling (oddly) a little old, even though i realize that i'm not. it's just amazing how quickly (or slowly, whatever) the years add up. i guess i've just never thought about things in this way before. interesting and odd. up next, josh is turning 30. muahahaha, he is getting old. or at least that's what we'll all be telling him. ha.

content with my age.
- corrie

finally awake and seeing clearly.

so... i'm tired and sore, but am experiencing a lovely boost of energy (even if only momentarily) from some caffeine packed soda. so that i can sleep tonight i have switched to water and taken 2 ibuprofen. i wish that i didn't hurt. i only worked 6 hours this morning, but i stood for 5.5 of them. some days that wouldn't bother me, but today my ankle was having issues. nothing new, but some days are better or worse than others. i usually hope for somewhere in the middle. today it also moved up into my knee, so my left leg is basically useless. i climbed into the bed of my truck earlier, and that was stupid. i tried to be all smooth, but if anyone was watching they probably thought that i looked stupid. i felt stupid at least.

so, with working at the produce stand (underwood family farms in somis, ca - in case you were wondering) there are a few things that i've figured out after working only 4 days. 1. i do better in the afternoon than in the morning. i'm a little slow in the morning. i'm much more of a night person, and my brain doesn't turn completely on until at least 11am, if not later. 2. i prefer working when it's busy. i can't stand the slow times. i thrive in busy situations. give me a line out the door and i'll do beautifully. this probably contributes to my major procrastination issues. 3. it is an art arranging fruit and vegetables into those little green strawberry baskets. santiago, and jack, and all the guys in the back have mastered it and it looks great when they do it; lined up perfectly with the tops down and bottoms up facing the same direction. when i do it, well, it probably looks like a joke. everything piled all over the place in no particular order. i did tomatoes in those baskets today too, and they looked pathetic. santiago's looked much better.

after work i was dead tired. once i sat down at home i didn't want to get up. seriously, i wanted to take my contacts out but at the same time didn't want to because then i'd have to walk the 15-20 feet to the bathroom to do it. i eventually got up and did it, and my eyes felt much better. later i had to make a quick run to the grocery store to pick up some stuff for dinner (cole slaw dressing, and a loaf of wheat french bread) and while i was driving everything looked different. i wondered what was going on, and then i realized that it was cause i had my glasses on, and it changes my perspective on things when i have them in. recently i've only been wearing my glasses in the mornings when i get up, and at night when i write and read before going to bed. the only days that i wear them all day are days that i don't typically get dressed until 4pm or so, and even then i don't usually drive anywhere. it didn't take me long to adjust but it did remind me of when i first get a new prescription and my eyes have to adjust to actually being able to see properly.

also, i think that i need to get a new pair glasses. don't get me wrong, the ones i have are still in fair working condition, but i've had them for about 4 years, and i feel like it's time for a change. i need some really awesome ones. i have an idea of what i want, now i just have to find it. humph. that's the difficult part.

praying for inspiration.
- corrie

i know the truth about charlie.

watched the truth about charlie tonight with natalie and megan. megan hadn't seen it and nat had only seen it once, and i'd forgotten just how good it is. all the things that tie in from the beginning to the end, and the questions that you are left with at the end. it's so well made and has so many great lines too. "it's true mrs. lambert, i am carson dyle. i did not..." well, i'd go on but if you haven't seen it then that line would ruin a piece of the movie for you.

also, been listening to the beach boys more and more recently. i'm currently into "good vibrations." last night i listened to "kokomo" and it brought me back to my childhood. i loved that song when i was little. i think mostly cause kermit the frog sang it, but i could be wrong.

in the mood for more beach boys.
- corrie

who i am.

okay. so, when i'm bored and mostly don't feel like doing anything, i do random things on the internet. tonight i'm looking at people from high school on myspace. so many people post the results of those silly quizzes on their page, and i'm not a big fan of that. what i do have fun doing is taking those quizzes, and laughing to myself about the results. i just took one about what kind of flirt i am. it turns out that i'm a cute flirt. whatever. i don't think that i'll go into most details about that one but, just for fun, here are the restults from some other quizzes that i've taken.

my full house character is becky. my disney princess is ariel. the language that i should learn is french. i'm somewhat machiavellian. i'm dave matthews band magic brownies ice cream. ("not those magic brownies." that's what it says. honestly!) i should drive a bentley azure. i'm pecan pie jones soda. my career type is artistic. my summer ride is a beetle convertible. i'm a mud pie. ("you're the perfect combo of flavor and depth. those who like you give to their impulses.") i'm a frappacino. i'm a classic martini. my scholastic strengths is deep thinking. the movie of my life is an indie flick. my life is like say anything. my hidden talent: "you are both very knowledgeable and creative. you tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them." my hair should be purple. (ugh, horrible color.) my 20's name is althea zola. i am a daisy. i have a type b personality. i am the godess psyche.

that's all. hope you found this amusing. does this tell me anything about myself? i'm not sure. probably somewhere deep down it does.

quizzed out.
- corrie

um.

well. it's another exciting night in ventura, california and i'm up to my eyes in it. no, i don't mean tons of friends around with everyone doing something fun and exciting that really hip college students do. i do mean, me sitting alone in my living room watching an old episode of without a trace, being bored on the internet. pretty sweet huh? yea, not so much.

earlier i went out to get ice cream from marble slab. all i wanted was chocolate swiss ice cream with butterfinger mixed in. i got there at 8:59 and the guy was locking the door. apparently they close at 9 on monday nights. i was irritated and hoping that cold stone was still open. i was in luck. they stay open until 9:30 and i really appreciated it. so i got a love it size of cheesecake ice cream with rainbow sprikles, and strawberries mixed in. it was really good. if they'd been closed i would have been horribly irritated. this post would have been much more mean spirited if i'd made a trip out tonight and not gotten what i'd wanted. that sounds really selfish. i didn't mean it to be that way, but it was. hmm. well, i suppose what i really wanted to get across there was that i would have been disappointed. and yea, the post would have been me bashing cold stone and marble slab. now it's in the past and i'm content with what i got.

yea. i'm feeling weird tonight. i set up our house with wireless internet this evening, and it took me far too long, and i think that put me in a weird mood. eh. whatever.

i'm also finding it interesting that when i try to go to bed at a decent hour, i can't sleep. yesterday was a busy day, and i did a ton of stuff. i went to a 2 year old's birthday party, where i swam, and then babysat 6 kids between the ages of 11 and 5, and they ran my butt off. i was dead tired at 10, so i decided to go to bed early. well, i was in bed by 10:45 (after getting ready and journaling) and i don't think that i fell asleep until after midnight. so annyoning. another thing. most nights i don't get my best sleep until the morning hours. sometime between 6 and 10am is when i sleep the best. just something interesting.

sebastian (my cat) i think wants a lap so i'm going to go now. lets hope that i can sleep tonight.

oddly mysterious.
- corrie

finally.

i get to write. it's not like i don't write in other things at other times, but i need to get things out in here sometimes too. anyways, if you read my post from yesterday, you realize that i have a lot to say, and have been feeling short on time to say it, at least in this medium. i think i'll go through that list of things and talk briefly about those. then again, i don't know how brief i will actually be. so bear with me.

ready go.

i got danielle to go with me and see sherwood thursday night in hollywood. it was a very good time. not only did i get to see sherwood for the 3rd time in 15 days, but i got to spend time with danielle again, and that was awesome. i haven't really spent time with her in about a year, and it was great to be able to talk to her and hang out, and nothing was odd or weird, and it was so much fun. i've really missed hanging out with her, and the drive back from the concert could not have been more funny. i even ate at mcdonalds again, the first time since my return to california. of course at 11pm there aren't many options either. the concert itself was again so much fun, and another completely different atmosphere. the majority of the people there were there to see daphne loves derby, so it was interesting seeing them get into a band that they'd never really heard before. it was also fun because i finally worked up the courage to meet someone from the band. i met dan on the way to the merch table to get a t-shirt for my dad, cause he really likes them too. dan was actually in my way, which after he introduced himself, and i did the same, he realized. so, it actually sort of just happened, but still, at least it happened, and i can say that i wasn't such a huge chicken that even when i bumped into one of the members i didn't meet them. next!

oh, okay, so my birthday was over a month ago, right? well it was, but my parents still had one gift up their sleeve for me, and it is awesome. it's a light up palm tree for my room next year and i am way stoked. i was going to get an inflatable one, but i have something way better now. also, danielle spent the majority of the last four months in italy, and even though we haven't hung out in so long she still thought of me and got me this really sweet ring from venice. it's a big chunky glass ring that is an interesting yellow color with blue spots. she said that she saw it and thought of me. the best part is that it actually fits my fat fingers, which i found difficult to believe, but am so happy that it did.

last night i was so unsure about working at underwoods. my first day of training was "eh," and my second day, that was more real work pretty much sucked. i had really mixed feelings about working there at all, and those made me REALLY REALLY REALLY not want to go into work today. however, i knew that i had to suck it up and go and try it out a bit longer, and it ended up not being too bad. today went really well actually. i'm surprised at how much i know already, and i so much prefer working when it's busy to when it's slow. i find it easier actually.

i'm not entirely sure how much i want to talk about this next thing, but i suppose i can say it briefly. i have a couple of blogs that i really enjoy reading. i stopped reading one of them for a week, just to see what i would think of it after a week away from it, and it only made me realize that i love to read this persons writing. they could talk about anything, and i would eat it out of a spoon. i don't know what it is, i just love it. oh, and i doubt anyone actually knows what blog i'm talking about, and for now i prefer to have it that way.

reading that person's blog, has somewhat inspired me to go back and read some of my old entries, and i have had so much fun doing that. i think that i'm actually pretty funny, and that my stories are amusing. then again, i lived out them, and that makes a difference, but i do hope that someone reading this who doesn't know me (i doubt there are any of those people though) would find it amusing and interesting in a boring way to read. there's still stuff that i'm sure that i'd like to write about, but i don't want to force the issue, and if i'm supposed to write about it then the opportunity will arise again, and it will be written about. i'll make note of it in the future, so stay tuned.

i hate drama, and i have been lucky enough in my life to not be involved in it. that can't be said for some of my friends though. yesterday i spent almost 2 hours on the phone with 2 friends about the same housing issue. it was exhausting, because there weren't any easy options in the whole thing, and there wasn't anything that i could do for them to help the situation. plus, i think that it got talked out a little too much in some cases. since then, more drama has arisen, only to have subsided with an agreement that should make everyone happy. at least for now. i'm relieved, and if i'm relieved, then my friends must be even more so.

oh my, i am tired. i'm also glad that i have gotten everything out that i wanted to. i have all these things that i want to say and i feel like i try to cram everything in as quickly as possible, and it becomes muddled and odd. luckily, i feel that this all turned out well. there was something else that i wanted to say, but it has escaped me at the moment. oh! now i remember. i am a little disappointed that once i have posted this entry, one of my favorite entries will pass on to be not visible and only under the link of "may 2006." it's called "insecurities are funny" and there is something about that entry that i do love. so if you haven't read it, please do.

i looked out the window earlier and saw the moon between the cracks in the curtain, and it made me smile. i love the moon.

there. it's all out there now.
- corrie

not enough time.

i have so much that i want to talk about but i'm plum out of time. i want to talk about last night, and the great time that i had at the concert and with danielle. i want to talk about some of the cool things that i've gotten over the last few days. i want to talk about work, and how unsure i am about it. i want to write about how i love to read other people's blogs, and the stories that they tell that are so amusing. i want to write about my feelings after going back and reading some of my older blogs, and how amusing i'm finding them, and what's changed since then, and stories that i wanted to tell that i never got around to. and i want to talk about all the drama that's going on with friends, and i can't do anything about it, only listen. which is what i suppose they really need. i really do wish that i could write it all now, but i need to go to bed. i was psyching myself up for a late night of reading and watching music videos or whatever, only to later schedule a meeting for 9:30am tomorrow. well, at least i get a free breakfast out of it.

longing for something more, even if it's just more time.
- corrie