response.

my good friend emily wrote a response to the last blog that i posted. if you're interested in reading a little bit about her views on the whole subject, and a little bit of her story please go and read it. the link is to the right.

hopeless. (a longish entry)

i've lost hope in yet another dream that i was having. the main factor that led me to this loss of hope on this thing is that deep down, sometimes unadmittedly, i'm a hopeless romantic. no matter how untrue it is, i dream for that happily ever after, or at least happilyish with a great guy. i'm sure that in some way i will get that eventually, but at this point in time my latest hope has been crushed.

background. i have not gone to many dances over the years. those that i have gone to have always been attended with female friends. while they have always been enjoyable there has always been something missing.

now. we have this thing called junior senior coming up on april 14th. it's a pretty fun thing i hear, and seeing that it is my senior year and last chance to go to a thing like this i decided to go. i had this hope that i might actually have a date for it. tickets went on sale earlier this week, and so the pressure has been on somewhat, even though it's not really pressure. there was this one person who, although it might have been a long shot, i thought might ask me to go - he was pretty much the only one who would possibly have asked me to go.

however, tonight at dinner i discovered that he had decided not to go to junior senior, and now my table is full, and i am yet again dateless. it's really disappointing. really.

it further makes me wonder why i have yet to be asked to a dance or out on a date. i know that there is nothing wrong with me. i'm a fun, laid back person, who gets along with almost everyone, why wouldn't anyone - even just a friend - ask me to something like this? i really have no idea. the whole thing makes me sad.

one day, my friends. one day.
- corrie

theory.

i like almost any song that says "don't don't."
seriously. i'm sitting here at my desk listening to some songs to put on a mix for a friend, and at least two of the songs have said that word at least two times in a row. i also know for a fact that i like other songs that have that in it.
something odd. thought you might like to know.

good news.

1. i thought i was getting sick, but i wasn't. it turned out to be only allergies.
2. the allergies sucked for over a day and the meds i purchased weren't working.
3. after taking them for a second time they began to work, and i now feel much better.
4. i played skip-bo with taryn tonight and beat her 2-1.
5. i feel like there should be something else here, but i'm not sure what else to say.

goodnight.
- corrie

fifth time.

i saw sherwood tonight for the fifth time live, and they were yet again amazing. i love them more and more all the time.

christine, mary and i went and saw them at the pageant in st. louis (or st. louie as they thought it might be better to call it). it was their first time seeing them, and they were plesantly surprised by how awesome they are live.

something else of note: i have never been to a sherwood concert with the same people twice. the first time i went by myself. the second i got laura, nat, and megan to go with me. the third danielle came. the fourth lauren was with me. and tonight mary and christine. fun times, introducing other people to the fantasticness of sherwood live.

i'm still on a high from yesterday, and it has been carried over into tonight. it was also helped along by the fact that sherwood was the best of the three bands that played tonight. they had the best stage presence and sound by far. (the other two bands were mae and relient k.)

i'm going to sleep now singing the songs of sherwood in my head.
- corrie

first time.

tonight, for the first time EVER, i won a track and field event. at the washington universtiy twilight meet i came in first in the hammer with a throw of 136'6", which was also a PR (personal record). i am so excited.

in all 7 of my previous track seasons i have not once won an event. sure i may have been the best at my school one or two years, but i was always going up against better throwers than myself. it is a great way to kick off my last outdoor season.

to top it all off my throws coach's wife martie, his son thomas, and my friend becky went to trader joes to get some groceries and returned with yellow and orange tulips for me to congratulate me on my first win ever. they are beautiful, and made even better by the fact that thomas picked them out himself. it was so nice and made for such a great day.

i guess it was also the first time i got flowers from a boy too! (even if he is only 8)
- c

the ville.

i have never been fond of calling greenville "the ville" but recently that shortening has taken hold in my vocabulary.

i am officially done with spring break. well, i suppose technically it isn't over until tomorrow morning when i go back to classes, but i am back in greenville. it feels so weird to be back, especially after such a crazy and awesome trip. 10 days has never felt so long, or made me feel so far away from a place before. driving back tonight i honestly didn't remember the state in which i left the room last thrusday.

i do have a couple of things to look forward to this week:
1. thrusday is trivia night, and we have an awesome team. all other teams watch out!
2. friday is our first outdoor track meet. i honestly haven't done anything in the last 10 days that will help me on friday, but it should be good anyway.
3. saturday mary, christine, and i are going to see sherwood play in st. louis. as far as i'm concerned thrusday and friday are merely building up to that momentous occasion. (I LOVE SHERWOOD!!!!!!!)

i suppose that's all i really have to say. i need to go to bed now, since i have class in 8.5 hours.

goodbye spring break, i will miss you.
- corrie

never.

never. in a million years, did i think that i would do what i just did. i just got back from being in the hot tub at julianne's house. not unusual for here. but what i didn't think i would ever do was jump out of said hot tub and run through the snow. yes: run through the snow. sometimes they roll around in it or make snow angels. i was lucky enough for the snow to be hard on top and was sparred that experience. i'm glad i did it, but i never thought that i would.

silly fat hobbit.

right now i'm sitting in the living room in julianne's house watching the lord of the rings: the two towers. one of my favorite characters just appeared. faramir. a great character. anyway...

reasons i'm super pumped:
1. i'm in minnesota for the first time and now that i'm rested it is much more enjoyalbe.
2. i bought my ticket to go and see sherwood next saturday in st. louis. i seriously can't wait.
3. tuesday i bought sherwood's brand new album "a different light" and it is amazing! (i have the songs stuck in my head)
4. i'm watching lord of the rings and they are awesome movies.
5. today we hiked around a local granite quarry and it was pretty cool.
6. i've only fallen once during spring break.

i'm sure that there are more reasons but those are all that i can think of at the moment. spring break has been so nice.
- corrie

24.

i somehow managed to stay up for over 24 hours from yesterday morning to today. i mostly blame it on the redeye flight that julianne and i took from california to atlanta, and time zones. our flight last night left lax at 11pm and arrived in atlanta at 6am, which really only felt like 3am to me so i didn't even get tired until the end of the flight. even if i had wanted to sleep however that would have been difficult. i was on the aisle, which wasn't too bad, but the real problem came with my seat that i could not get to recline at all. i was frusterated with that, and it carried over to my next flight. the one from atlanta to minneapolis/st. paul was far less comfortable than the previous one. the seats were smaller and i felt like i was leaning forward the whole time. and i couldn't get this one to recline at all either. i think that near the end of this flight i slept for a few minutes before being jostled awake, which i experienced at least 3 times.

once we landed i was exhausted and disoriented, but so thankful to be in our destination. julianne's mom picked us up and we did a quick stop at costco before heading to st. cloud. i slept some on the way to her house which was so nice, and once we got here we got all our stuff in, had a few snacks, and then i took a nap. it was glorious. i've not had some time to wake up, and taken a shower and i feel better than i have in about 24 hours. i'm still disoriented on times and things like that thanks to all the time changes we experienced and not sleeping through any of them, but i should be better by tomorrow morning.

the second half of spring break had now begun.
- corrie

burn.

it is so nice to be back home in california. the weather is amazing. i believe that the coldest day so far was in the mid 60s. today it was almost 90. yesterday we went to san luis obispo to see natalie and spent some time downtown then drove to avila beach and walked around. i got a bit of a sunburn. it's not a good thing but it's also not the worst that i've ever had. i should end up with not a bad little tan afterward. friday we also went to the beach and julianne experienced her first california sunset. today we went to church and then ate outside with the noells, and the roses. it was wonderful in the warm shade with a warm breeze blowing. so nice. it's going to be difficult adjusting to the cold minnesota weather on wednesday.

looking forward to my last two days in california for at least two months.
- corrie

also, i'm updating my flickr page with the pictures julianne and i are taking. go check them out.

campus life.

i graduate from college in a little over two months, and while i am happy that i am almost done i'm going to miss it a little too. mostly what i'm going to miss is having most of my friends within walking distance of each other, and being able to drop by and see them whenever possible. i will also miss walking around campus on a nice day and seeing people i know. at a larger university this may not have been an issue, but here at greenville every knows who everyone else is, and that is so nice. i suppose that i'll get used to not living in this type of atmosphere, but i will always miss these days.

only two more months of this.
- corrie

reading.

this weekend i had my first weekend off in about a month, and it was great. julianne and i went to st. louis and did some shopping. nothing too frivolous - a little time at old navy, a while at barnes & noble, cold stone, target, and trader joes. i was pleased with myself that i didn't actually purcase anything at old navy or target. at barnes & noble i got 2 books (which are the real topic of this blog), at cold stone ice cream, and trader joes some amazing frozen food (yum).

my primary reason for purchasing the books was to read them duing my greatly anticipated spring break (for which i leave here friday). after reading the backs of at least 20 books, picking up and carying around about 8 books, i decided on two: true love (and other lies), and return of jonah gray. in order to make sure that i liked at least one of them i began to read true love (and other lies) monday night. i like reading it, and am looking forward now to finding out what happens next. the only problem with it is that it's a sort of modern romance novel. not like those cheesy ones that you can get with fabio on the cover, but ones that are a little more inteligent that that. i guess the fact that it's a romance novel isn't even the real issue. the real issue is that it fuels my imagination. it's something that i used to enjoy, dreaming certain dreams, but now i don't enjoy them so much, and i've been successful in steering clear of them. so now, no matter how much i try i keep thinking of situations that i want to happen, but i also want to avoid thinking about those things. the more i read the books the more seceptible i am to those dreams/thoughts, but i still want to find out what happens next in the books. sheeze. i'm stuck in a cycle. i guess i'll get out of it when i finish my book.

to reading and traveling. woohoo!
- corrie